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[Nov. 28th, 2009|02:37 am] |
Last last thursday was a school-flooding day (i cant believe i'm still talking about this)
Someone fell asleep while chatting on the phone ;X But I want him to sleep anyway. :D so yay! hug hug*
Oh well, just came in to say... I'M EFFING SCARED OF G H O S T !@!@!@!@! ): |
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| wo hui lai le |
[Nov. 19th, 2009|09:43 am] |
I'm back! :D
I love J. He sends me home like, always, nowadays. Though I'm guilty he gets home so late every time...
Oh anyway, waiting for J to come school now, and listening to Christmas song in the library. The song's pretty funny. Because... it really is. HAHA. It's the "on the ___th day of christmas my true love gave to me..." that one. :3
Now it's playing Rudolf the Red Nose Reindeer.
Tired. D: I want sleep like 12 hours everyday, please?
Christmas is coming, gosh. :D :D |
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| go up and come down. |
[Nov. 8th, 2009|02:11 am] |
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Life is full of ups and downs.
I'm glad J sent me home nowadays, yet worried cos he'll reach home super late.
Happy 5th month, and I'm sorry. ): Love you.
Dont think I blogging for some time now. Shall let LJ suffer a bit. FUCK YOU LJ. CCB FB SIBEI SLOW CONNECTION KNNBCCB. ARGH.
ok bye. |
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| off to bed! |
[Nov. 2nd, 2009|04:05 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | darling, homework, work | ] |
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Just finished my CATS homework. Damn, I don't know what the heck happened to it but then it turned out to look so messy. I swore I did press enter after I add in the title like:
Name of skill: blah blah blah
But it turned out...
Name of skill:blah blah blah
P/S: the 'blahblahblah' not bold. Don't you find it so messy?! ARGH. Make me mad.
Went out with darling just now. Turned out that a hug dissolved all sadness within me. Sigh. And lailai still hasn't give me a schedule, wtf. I already smsed with my name. Ok I going to sleep, nights. |
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[Nov. 1st, 2009|02:36 am] |
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Sad days for the past few days. Very sad. And angry.
I'm sorry. |
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[Oct. 29th, 2009|11:15 pm] |
Realised that I didn't allow comments to be opened to anonymous. No wonder no comments): Now, go comment!!! :X
Happy days are like when I was being pampered. Darling went to buy ice-cream for me just because I have the urge to eat it, and then sent me to the busstop, which meant he had to walk the overheadbridge extra 2 times. :3 Happy days are like when there was peace in everything. YESSSSSSSSSS. And so loving. <3
Sad and angry days are... horrible.
Okay la, I know long time never blog. Will blog more often if only people can comment more to motivate me... :X Had been watching videos kinda like everyday for the past week. (in library). And yes that _l_ Richard Ho is an irritating bastard in library. Hope alot people sue him and he can say byebye to his job.
"Hey, no using of handphones in the library. Switch off your handphone now!" "What? You want to play fuck with me?"
Yes, he actually uses vulgar too. Tsk tsk. He's just an ass.
Classes are... ok bah... New people here and there. And hey ex-Ichiban-ians, remember a girl by the name Jing Ying back when she's our colleague?? I in the same class as her on wednesday. xD
And hor, love you leh, darling. |
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[Oct. 21st, 2009|02:21 am] |
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Wee. I love you darling. |
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| short one |
[Oct. 21st, 2009|01:14 am] |
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It's raining now.
I shan't talk much...
Found some funny videos on the net, darling go see. Hope they'll cheer you up. Love you. <3 |
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| Bstats announcement: week1 - lessons will commence |
[Oct. 19th, 2009|07:50 am] |
... Woke up at 6.50am. For what leh? School. Bathed, drank coffee, ate toasts. End up leh?...
TODAY NO BSTATS TUTORIAL. -sulks-
Wake up so early for nothing lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ROAR. Nevermind, later afternoon go school find J. :D Thanks sooching, for telling me. lol.
Few days ago: Sharlynn, PeiChuan, SooChing and Favian had been really nice to bring a watermelon to my house when they visiting me. And even waited till they come my house then cut cake. Awww. Happy birthday to PeiChuan! Then after that J surprise me cause he came find me too. Hahaha, and his sister bought some expensive shirts for him. (because I asked him to buy that kind). Haha! Sweet. <3 Head over to JP to meet sc, pc, and fav. Job hunted awhile and ended up working at LaiLai. Sc went to some other place, and got hold of a job quite fast. xD
Couldn't go out with SYJ, sad. Sorry guys, next time I'll organise a SYJ outing!
J woke up and went back to sleep. 30 more mins he should be awake! <3
And I never realised Deepavali was a 2 days ago. No wonder I see so many indians around... |
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| 独自哭泣,谁来安慰... |
[Oct. 10th, 2009|03:28 am] |
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周围变得非常冷。我独自一个人又不禁滴下了泪水... 就知道好日子不会呆久,就知道好事不会一个接一个地来。但却又没有做好心理准备。 我躲在冲凉房内已到达最长久的一次。因为在里头,没有人会看见我悲伤,没有人会因此而问我是怎么一回事。我感觉到周围又多了一层厚厚的壳,把心里的另一道门给关上了。
我狠自己为什么那么脆弱。明明知道这一切可以就凭一句话而结束,但却又没有勇气做出决定。 我体会到,原来爱真的很痛。
而我,好害怕...
我想逃避。躲进自己的壳里,逃避一切的一切。 可以吗? |
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[Oct. 9th, 2009|05:04 pm] |
HAHAHA, one week never blog liao. :X
shall start from the...2nd?
2nd, stayed home to accompany mom.
3rd, went to my aunt house to celebrate moon cake festival and also my grandfather's birthday, but ended up there's no cake?! But there was mass eating of durian moon cake (my aunt poor thing, we cleared all her durian moon cake in her fridge). And then after that went to play candles and sparkles with two of my cousins. :D miss codie.
4th, J went to celebrate his birthday with his family and I didn't want to join so I stayed home, and ended up my aunt die die want me go out dinner with her and my sis. :O ate jap food again, and after that i went to hunt for sudoku books.
5th, happy 4th month darling. As requested, I made my way all the way to J's house. Suppoesed to reach at 11 but I late abit again. Lol. Oh, and he had a surprise for me. Chocolate cake. Hahaha. Thanks darling. <3 After that, played Street Fighter 4 on his laptop and I had to keep nagging him to go change and it's time for us to go out. Roar~ Went to Orchard Ion and walked around. Made J wore a cap and it looked really nice :D after that we walked all the way to cine and continue strollinggggg.
6th, J came to my house to find me. So sweet. He was very nice today. Went to GekPoh arcade to play Street Fighter 4 and then ended up my thumb nail broke and bleed ): Then I went to buy some junk food for me and my sis and that's when I felt really sick - I see loads of white spots all around and I felt really weak. Went to sit down, and then J got me a drink and kept me warm when I was feeling so cold. Felt better but don't feel like eating laksa (part of the reason why we came to gekpoh) and ended up ordering some tasteless duck porridge. D: sorry to J that he didn't get to eat the laksa. Roar. Somewhere after that, J hurt his toe and it started bleeding. Helped him put plaster. Still, he sent me all the way home despite his bleeding toe. <33
7th, because I had a surprise for J, I intended to make my way to AMK and find ways to make him not come to my house to fetch me and go elsewhere. Ended up I had to lie, paiseh... Reached AMK -late- again, and ate fish and co. I swore I'll smack Sherwin if I see him because he spoilt my surprise. Humph. AMK F&C service sucks okay. Ask the malay girl to serve us ice water, after so long still never come and I see her serving new customers. Walau eh. Before that Clarence already asked for ice water. I got so fed up. Grrr. Oh, and yea, never put darling with YuHui together. It's disaster. Lol. Brandon and Shawn had the cheek to run away w/o paying (though they came back later) and Mark was suggesting smashing the cake in their face. Dewi was our camerawoman :D and MengXuan was there too. After dinner, I took bus with J till he reach his bus stop, then cross the overhead with him and took my 165 back to Clementi. AH yes, I broke my right thumb nail while turning off the tap. Sigh.
8th, a happy birthday to darling! Went out with him, meet at Raffles City. I don't know where else to go. Ended up we walked from that MRT to city hall mrt. LOL. Went raffles city and the art exhibition was really cool. Then because of some misunderstandings... D: Anyways I saw gina and michelle at city link! And also PengHwee later at suntec. After that when going home, I took the red line to send J off at AMK station and I sit all the way back to JP. Huggles<3 And I tore a comic book plastic cover and made until my left index finger bleed...
today, stayed home. Mom's been nagging at me for keep going out. I was supposed to be looking for a job. She's rather irritated at me for keep putting out my hand for money. D: I have to thank darling, because he's always the one treating me stuffs. The money I was given was always used to top up my transport card. :/
Oh anyways, saw the youtube thing for X-Factor on Dewi's blog. Yea, the one she put up was really nice.
but then the one that made me cry wasn't that. It was this:
I don't know why, but I think I was really touched by the girl more than by that guy. O_o And I think I cried when I was looking at the father standing at the door :O |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2009|01:37 am] |
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28th, went out with J to town, cine and ate pasta mania. After that then went taka's kinokuniya to buy a comic book. :D Was very guilty because he walked all the way to the bus stop with me and I had to board the last bus, leaving him alone and he need to walk alllllllllllll the way back to MRT station because he got no bus home ):
29th, J came JP :D I not late! Woohoo. Drank bubbletea while waiting for him to reach. After that just hanged around and laugh at random stuffs. xD Oh, if buying rexona (woman), pls buy the green one. D: other sucks. hahaa. After that, darling very nice send me back to GekPoh again <3
30th, stayed home because mom says I keep going out :O
- today went out with J to PS and watched 9. He's very nice to help check the timing for the movie since he knew I wanted to watch it :D
After watching movie then went X-Zone to play arcade. We play some fighting game where we compete with each other. Haha! It was funny. Then we went to play car racing, and even played DDR. Lol. Fun. <3
Sharlynn asked me out tomorrow but I can't. ): Promised mom to stay home, sorry eh.. D: I see Sharlynn SooChing and Jean having so much fun going out, hope I can have some fun with them too. Faster ask May out! |
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[Sep. 27th, 2009|11:21 pm] |
Hahaha, one thing I like about LJ, they let me have "comments" instead of having me put in a tagboard myself. I like "comments" somehow. :X
- 25th, went out with J and had a tiff later on, where I flared up, but he's very sweet to come back and find me although he already board the MRT. <3 Thought the day ended really really bad, but it didn't! Thankyou darling, that meant a lotttttttttttttt<3
- 26th, went for mentoring and I left my buddy with WanTing because I had another 3 kids to take care of. Thanks girl. And my buddy was very nice to put 'i love you qinghui' and also '<3 for you qinghui' at her folio cover. Awww.
Then went to find J again and he's very nice not to emo face me because I was late for so effing long! Sorry! D: Had fun walking around and all and laughed at lotsa things. Went for a movie too. I actually didn't want to watch movie on weekends because it really cost a bomb.. But there didn't seem to be anything else to do, so went to watch Phobia2.
Watch watch watch, and torturous for me because there's alot of sudden scenes which made me jumped. There were 5 parts, but the last part was super funny. Lol. Seriously. 1st part was about monks, 2nd part was about hospital (which I think the story is totally crap), 3rd part called 'Backpackers' about zombies (super scary), and 4th part is called 'Salvage' about selling cars, and last part 'In the End' about filming a horror movie. Hahaha. :D
And darling's very sweet to send me all the way to JP, accompanied me to return my long-dued library book (lol) and send me until GekPoh. -smiles-
Happy birthday to boss's brother!
- Today, I slacked at home and practically slept till 6pm. HAHAHA. Can you believe it?! Aizai... |
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| I should shut up for now. |
[Sep. 24th, 2009|09:33 pm] |
Missed Brandon's party, I'm sorry... Guessed everyone was having fun and then ... forget it.
Saw something and then guessed as much that I was being refered. I guess it was true, I need a goal and drive, and I want to be someone whom people would want to be. The fault doesn't always seem to be people, I have fault too. I will work on it and also I will study harder. Okay?
Mom's got a little health problem. She should work on it. D: |
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| You'll always be a part of me. |
[Sep. 23rd, 2009|04:11 pm] |
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I just read Dewika's blog, and I realised that time they went out to watch I Love You, Beth Cooper. I was told they'll watch G-force, so I didn't go. Did they change their mind? D: Actually, I pretty miss them. The I M FAT clique. Dewika, Jessica, Shawn, Brandon, Clarence, Gabriel, MarkCher, Justin, SheauYun, Elizabeth, Meng Xuan, Andy and of course with me and darling inside.
I don't know since when, I realised that this clique seemed to break off, from each other. First it was Mark and Justin (i think). And then it was Andy. And then Clarence, Meng Xuan, SheauYun went off to go in groups with my classmates Wilson and wait, what's his name? -thinks- Oh my God, I can't remember. (fails) And then Shawn went away with Jeremy's clique and Brandon...I don't know where he went. What's left? Who's left? This is when I felt that the clique broke apart...
And then I felt being so left out too. When I had to endure myself from being with I M FAT clique to the clique with C, A, SY, MX, W and iforgothisname. YongQuan was my source of only hope. And this was when I felt that Poly ain't so great from what I thought. Where were all my friends? When were all the happy times I've had for the past few months? I get no answer. I felt that people hate me, I don't know why. I felt invisible.
Holidays are here, and I started to miss being with the group. Tell me the clique is all right, organise an outing. Let me know that everything I assumed are untrue, and that Poly's awesome. Please?
Going out. I miss darling already. (L) |
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[Sep. 21st, 2009|12:36 am] |
Went to overnight at cousin's house, watching dvds/vcds for the whole night. Lol.
Happy birthday, yunzhong:D
went out with darling today. ate swensens and saw one of our school mates. haha, so shocked. Damn 502 always take soooooooooooo long to come and then just now I got a seat at the back, which has such a big space I can hardly keep my butt in place. Sheeze. But the driver drives fast, shiok.
Uh huh, I better buy yunzhong a birthday present faster. Lol. And my library book is yet again overdued. ): |
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| Happy days are hard to come by. |
[Sep. 18th, 2009|05:50 pm] |
Wow, it's been a week. Had been rather lazy (again). And I know I should really update more often.
Chongcher's birthday celebration at suntec fish&co. And ended up quarrelling with darling. Another day, also quarelling.
Seems like the quarrelling and fighting days never get over. :S Fuck it, seriously.
And had been fighting and getting along and fighting.
Even going CCA also sparks of a fight. Like What the Fuck?
Darling wants to break up with me over CCA and Maple. Seriously, if these isn't stupid reasons, then pigs can fly. CCA I also cannot go. @_@" (Like, Hello, What is the effing reason why I cannot go?) Maple also cannot play. I admit I lied to him just because I want to play Maple, but then it's ridiculous he wants a breakup like that. If he had let me play Maple, you think I'd still choose to lie?
I already didn't go for camp and didn't sign in my MSN for so long, and then he cannot even compromise these things and calls for a breakup. Furthermore, he claims it isn't his taiji if we broke up. Zzz. Smlj?
And I remembered us fighting during our 3rd anni. Sibei dulan, though I was guilty. (z_z)"
Forget it luh. Happy days are hard to come by. Better be happy about it...
Results are out, and I haven't check them. I think I flunk them like siao. :O Sian. Gonna go Gekpoh with Sharlynn later and then go to cousin's house to stay overnight. Off with drinking and stuffs I suppose. (some useless beers perhaps.)
Oh ya, went to watch Aliens in the Attic. Was a really really funny movie. haha! And lq went to army. And my cousin's still in jail. Wonder how's Aaron's case... /edit. end up overnight only drinking crysanthement and greentea! rofl. |
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[Sep. 6th, 2009|01:16 am] |
Went out today and still, we fight. :S But after that, okay liao. Happy 3rd month. (:
Waited at AMK for him for more than an hour, freezing with cold. But still, my fault for ruining his plan. Thanks for the cake anyway, though I never see it. Appreciate his effort. Thanks!
Walked around AMK, eat prata and played arcade. Took bus to Hougang, went to walk in the mall. Then finally went to Vivo to get dinner (LJS!) and watch G-force. Talked a lot of craps after eating dinner. Lmao. And clouds are so so so fun to play with.
Took 30 back home and then have to walk home from JP. Thought no bus then end up there's still 242, 181 and 243. ): Walked home. Then there's this chinaman riding bicycle. Saw me and then he stopped at the bus stop and stare at open space. What the fuck? Then I continue walking and I hear bicycle behind me. Oh my God lah, I thought he was going to attack me... T_T then I turned around and look at him and let him pass. Then he cycle slowly and overtake me. Walao, scary lah.
Reaching prime market, I saw the people I used to hang out with. Uh huh. Them. And to confirm what I saw, I went to 7-11 to buy sweet and then went to Prime to confirm it's them.
No doubt. Guess how I felt?
!@#$%^&*()
I'm not angry. I'm sad. But forget it... Oh, thanks for even asking me to join after I went back, kh and lq. It's my own loss for turning it down, okay? It's me losing temper, okay? Tsk.
Oh, yc likes skittles, ha ha.
PS: A china woman approached me and asked me for handphone number and name. I gave her my name as Esther and she gave me her namecard which is dunno what 'Create Talents Pte Ltd'. Lmao. She see a talent in me?? :D
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[Sep. 4th, 2009|03:50 pm] |
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Wednesday. stayed home and slacked.
Thursday. Quarrelled with darling over camp. Was feeling very pissed. Very. What the fuck is wrong with going to camp? I just don't understand. Don't want me to go camp, what is your reason??
Camp or breakup. What the hell. And if I go camp, he's going to cancel our 3rd month, 4th month, and so on anniversary. Zzz. So fucked up, I decided not to go camp, neither go out to celebrate on the 5th.
After that, I went all the way to Bishan to find him and then he treat me eat Sakae. Feeling so disappointed that he break his promise again. What for carve on your hand? Huh? Forget it...
Today. Agreed to go out with darling. But my mom at home, so have to stay home and accompany her in case she nagged me again. Then sms darling tell him I staying home today and go out with him tomorrow which I had decided that I die die will not go out. I thought he'd be happier like that. End up he not happy again because I caused him to have no dinner. Ya, my fault. Sorry lor... And she kept asking me why I didn't go for the camp. What can I say? :S
I'm so tired. Have to fight like that everyday... |
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